OCTOBER 9, 2011

week 5

10/9/2011

.13 inches

if had to compare, because in my mind a poppy and sesame seed were virtual the same size. but no! you have grown and it’s an important week because all your inner are beginning to develop so i have been extra good and only had one coffee and one diet coke this week.

this week everything has felt a little more real. i made an appointment with my midwife. you were given a due date 6.03.2012 – andreas loved this date because six is half of three and twelve is six doubled. does anyone else think like this besides my A? i’m been exhausted during the day and peeing all through the night. i love these little reminders that you are there.

perhaps the most exciting is that we had a couple of those “after the baby is born” conversations. i even allowed myself to quickly jot down a list of must have for any baby – three years ago all i could do is makes lists, it’s how i get excited. so lists were made but much more complete with name brand, price, and store location. after our first ivf the lists just disappeared all together. but this week i wanted to make a list so – on scrap paper, in five minutes i wrote down the basics any kid could tell you a baby needs, which i tore up and threw away afterwards. but it felt so good!!

i’ve been walking around on pins and needles the past few days because next week is when we will hear your heartbeat and you will be deemed viable. viable is such a cold word to be describing something with so much potential life. thursday will not come soon enough…