OCTOBER 9, 2011

week 6

10/16/2011

.25 inches

we finally got to see our bean this week (our nickname for you, even though he/she is still a wee little seed). we went to go see my midwife, whom i dearly love (ask me why in person, it’s not completely blog appropriate) and after a few tears when they told us we would have to wait until next week for an ultrasound and answering some overwhelming questions first-time parents haven’t even thought of this early (breastfeeding…doulas…what?), we were sent to radiology.

it was one of the most surreal moments to see your little heart beating away on the screen. 124 beats per minutes. exactly where it should be. i kept thinking this isn’t real, except i had no choice but believe. of course, my A asked the tech a thousand and one questions while all i wanted to do is keeping watching your heartbeat. she measured you from rump to crown and according to her you are 5 weeks and 3 days, which is a little perplexing since we know your conception date – one of the perks of ivf. we did see a little surprise – another sack but it was completely empty. when the tech said another sack, A eyes got really wide. i had to smile, since during this process he always said one is just enough for us :)

today made me trust a little bit more that this is really happening. i still remind myself that it is early. i still remind myself that we aren’t out of the woods yet. but tonight i didn’t have any of those thoughts. instead, we talked about your little heart beat and gazed at a fuzzy print out of you. in awe.