OCTOBER 5, 2011

i hate calling it the big 3-0 (even though i did for A, hehe :) because really 30 isn’t  that big, it’s just another year with many more to follow. maybe i am in denial but i don’t think so!

i woke up this morning by andreas kissing my check saying “happy birthday. now we are both in the same decade and official adults”. i love hearing those words, forget the same decade, but that we are adults. he was talking about our little seed. i love that on my 30th, it was more than just him and me. it’s still really early and there is still uncertainty but i always want to remember that on my 30th birthday we were three.

my mom, A and i went to dinner at bella napoli a little italian alimentari in brookside. i was craving sushi like crazy but i was forced to heed the warnings about raw fish and pregnancy - so pasta and carbs won. we devoured an wonderful appetizer and i licked my salad plate because the balsamic vinaigrette was beyond this world. we came home opened wonderful presents, ate ice cream and i crashed on the couch that evening.

all in all, it was a wonderful birthday. i wanted to keep it low keyed because we didn’t know what the results of the ivf would be. if our results were negative i didn’t want to feel pressured to celebrate and if it was positive i could choose how to celebrate. and let’s just say that i mentioned to andreas that a beachy vacation this spring would be another great way to celebrate turning 30. of course, he would be invited to come along.