Archive for March, 2010
gray. cloudy. cold.
MARCH 10, 2010
the weather has reflected our home and hearts this week.
piece by piece we are beginning to come to grips with our unsuccessful ivf. little things like letting go of a future due date. the disappointment of being a failure. the little wishes and dreams for our children that we quietly spoke of while going through the process have floated away. dollars that are gone gone gone.
the uncertainty of the months and possibly years that lie ahead are becoming daunting. no we haven’t spoken about our next steps. and honestly my brain doesn’t have any energy to think about next steps. ready or not tomorrow will come so are still taking it one day at a time.
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MARCH 9, 2010
we received the news from our ivf clinic today that our test came back negative. while i was not completely surprised that did not take away from the shock or disappointment. i found out via email (our choice) and i called to let andreas know. the rest of the afternoon and evening was a little surreal.
what do you say after putting so much time, energy, hope and finances into one little embryo that decided not to stick?
so we walked to governor’s stumpy for dinner. came home and just sat.
